Master of Alchemy
You live attached in a cowardly fashion to moral & social conventions you despise, condemn, & know lack all foundation. It is that permanent contradiction between your ideas & desires & all the dead formalities & vain pretences of your civilisation which makes you sad, troubled & unbalanced. In that intolerable conflict you lose all joy of life & all feeling of personality, because at every moment they suppress & restrain & check the free play of your powers - The Torture Garden - Octave Mirbeau